Confused and Perhaps Unmotivated

[mharris5436532]

This will be a long story. I had an account at Language-Exchanges and when I tried to communicate with the Japanese language partners there and mentioned video games, it all went downhill from there, and was blocked and deleted one by one, and I eventually deleted my Language-Exchanges account and even shut down my Skype account and stopped talking to people both online and real life almost completely, and while this may not sound logical, every time I play a Japanese game, I'm reminded of what happened over the past several months, and even ask myself "Were these soul-filled experiences really created by Japanese people, or am I hallucinating?" I even play Western games to avoid the extreme emotional pain triggered when I play Japanese-made games; to top this I suffer from autism, anxiety and severe clinical depression, so I know that does play a role too. Mainly, I feel incredibly unmotivated to study Japanese, because I keep thinking that everyone will be like the people whom blocked and deleted me, but I don't want to give it up completely. I apologize for any offense caused, and for treating this like a counseling session, I am just very confused, and do not even know how I feel right now. Thank you very much for reading.

[team.relationships]

Hi Mharris,

Thank you for your interesting comment!
I hope you feel better than the time when you wrote your message to us.
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Gergő
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[mharris5436532]

Thank you, I feel just a tad better since I'm on vacation taking time out from everything that has been happening. I will let you know of any inquiries I have. Thank you for responding.

[team.relationships]

Mharris, you are welcome!

Ofelia
Team JapanesePod101.com